the tattoo bizznack

so - i wanna get my second tattoo... im feeling like sum starfish are in order............................. but i dunno if im feeling the bushido thing again. is there a better place that wont break the bank? i definitly luv bushido and will probably go back - but hey, when permanently inkin urself u cant always stick to the same ol' eh? lol... RIGHT. anyone got any suggestions of places to check out, lemme kno....

here i am

i wish tomorrow would come. i wish i could just skip ahead and be where i want to be. i wish i could just have my hw done and not have to do it. it gets so tiring to be doing the same thing day after day after day.

i sit here and dream of the future. i dream of where i want to be, what i want to do with my life. i wonder how my family will react when i actually leave here. i wonder what it will be like to actually put that backpack on my back and hop on that plane - the plane to nowhere... the plane to everywhere.

the thing is there IS so much i want to do with my life inbetween now and then. i want to get more tattoos... i want to go skydiving, i want to go scuba diving. i want to do mini-travel trips and sit around and watch movies. i want to go to more wing-nites, and go out dancing at clubs. i want to go to my sister's grad and i want to graduate. oh god, more than ever i want to graduate.

i am so so sick of skool. i mean, i love what i am learning and all - but skool? geez louise... its been too long, far too long......... ive never had my life WITHOUT skool - i can only imagine cuz the last time i didn't think bout skool was when i was 4. when i was 4 i was only too happy to get my cabbage patch kid - "candy" was her name. now i am 20 - almost 21... and im STILL in skool, with 2 more years to go. *sigh* sometimes i wonder if i can make it. i kno i can, cuz ive only had almost 16 yrs experience with school. wow. thats almost 2 whole decades of skool. i dont kno how ppl do it when they want to go and get their masters or their doctorates. no clue. thats not for me.

i want to fly. i want to fly away and never return. i want to fill my life with experiences that ive only dreamed of up until this point. cuz thats what i think life is all about. its about achieving those dreams that no one thinks you can. its about going full-throttle, as fast as you can cuz you never kno when your life will be done... no one knows - so ive gotta make the most of what i have...... and sometimes i wonder if i even do that - or if i just sit back and hope for tomorrow. cuz the truth is - tomorrow never comes.

tattoo

i finally got my tattoo! this is what it looks like:






i love hibiscus flowers because they are so beautiful and exotic. they remind me of the ocean and tropical areas of the world that i have been to and would love to go. they remind me of beaches where all you need is your bare feet in the sand. overall an hibiscus flower means natural beauty which is something i value in my life.

i chose blue because it's not only my favorite color, but it also symbolizing tranquility, calmness and peacefullness. it also makes me think of the color of the ocean.

i decided on the words "one life" to remind me of how i should live my life. we only got one life to live, one life to give and then it's gone. life is so short and there is no garantees - we need to take what we got and go forward, full throttle. we need to dream big and then chase after those dreams with all we got. we never know when our time will be up so use the life we have and live with no regrets.